I’ve been a software engineer for over a decade. I love this work — the puzzle-solving, the craft of building something from nothing, the people I’ve gotten to learn from along the way.
But somewhere in the last few years, I started noticing something I hadn’t made space for: the weight of it. The racing thoughts before a deploy. The Sunday evening dread. The way a tough code review could ruin my whole week.
I don’t think I’m alone in that. And I think there’s real value in talking about it openly.
This blog is my attempt to do that — to explore the intersection of mental health and software engineering with honesty and, hopefully, a little warmth. Some posts will be practical. Some will be personal. All of them come from a place of wanting to make this industry a little more human.
If any of it resonates, I’m glad you’re here.
I write under a pen name — not because I'm ashamed, but because I want this space to be about the ideas, not about me. If you're going through something similar, I hope that makes it easier to see yourself in these words.